I remember saying..
There’s still hope
That humanity isn’t lost yet
But I fear..
So many don’t realize the cost yet
This spiral has quickened
The earth weeps more
I can hear the screams
Lost souls clawing at the ledge
Faces of fear and sadness
All that I thought would save us
Is falling off the edge..
To become a better you, you must first admit to your faults and mistakes. You have to take ownership of the things you have done wrong as much as the things you have done right. You have to see where you want to be and do whatever you need to do to get there.
One doesn’t simply become good at something overnight. Most things take a ton of practice and a will to be better at that thing. Becoming a better person is no different. The first step is honesty. Be honest to yourself and everyone around you. A lot of us have forgotten what that is all about and It’s a huge reason some of us never reach our full potential and why society is how it is nowadays. I’m not perfect, I fuck up a bunch but the one thing that helps me along my way is honesty. I’m honest with myself and for the most part, those that I love are honest with me as well.
The road is long and it is insanely difficult but in the end it is so worth it. So grow some balls and be the person you want to freakin be.
I hope you all have a good day.
What’s the difference between you and me?
Not a damn fucking thing…
Same person with the same problem
Living in a world that doesn’t really want us to solve them
Moldy green place
Eco not so friendly
Gettin money is the main race
I choose not… shoes won’t lace
You say the way I want to live is a disgrace
Well then be on your way then
Get the fuck out of my face..
There is no time to be nice anymore
The world won’t change with hugs and high hives
We have to shake them right down to their fuckin core
Force the truth upon them
Even out the score
Because at the end of the day
I refuse to be just another government whore.
7 hrs of uninterrupted sleep and I feel like myself again.. apparently that’s sleeping in for me (wtf is wrong with that). First thoughts of the day goes like this…
I’m by no means a smart man, I’ve just been through a lot and understand people and like to think logically about most things. I’m not the nicest person. In fact, I make some dirt bag moves on occasion but so have you at some point in your life. My life is not perfect, most of the time I find myself in a nasty game of tug of war I call What’s the right and wrong move? I’ve grown far too tired of hearing what people think about my decisions and if they disapprove or not. At this point, I just don’t care. Remember that just because I don’t give a shit doesn’t mean I don’t respect your opinion. Know that I do keep the ones that matter in my head but ultimately that’s my decision to make..
I’m pretty much done looking for another love of my life. Not to say I don’t give a damn because being alone the rest of your life is lame. If it happens cool but I’m just trying to enjoy what time I have left on this earth. For those of you that don’t know, I will be moving back to New York at the end of summer to be back with my son, I just can’t be there enough now to feel good about it. I hate the fact that I have to leave this city because despite the bad things about it, this is my home and I love all of you that I’ve met in it.
The last thing I have to say before I go to the gym is this.. Me being sober or not being sober has nothing to do with any of you and I absolutely mean NOTHING. I don’t really care if you are upset with my many lame attempts at quitting drinking and after this week, I’ve decided that today I am going to have a few beers because well I want to.
Yes this is everything I thought about when I opened my eyes. I dont’ like to lie and trust that when I tell you something it’s 100% honest because I don’t have the time or energy to play games with you. Anyways it’s a beautiful day out so I’m going to enjoy the rest of it, I hope this doesn’t upset any of you but really I’m okay either way.
Remember that even though I try to be fair (try), I am an asshole at heart and that will probably never change. Peace out and here is some chromeo to put you guys in a good mood. Don’t judge my music taste, it’s a waste of your time.